Later 2011

Felt as though 2011 really wasn't too crazy. Graduating college was my number one accomplishment as well as getting a full-time job. I guess I can put being in a healthy relationship up there even though it didn't work out in the long run.

• Coachella 2011 was fun with Jessie and Sammee
• Stagecoach - can't believe I gave country a chance, but sure glad I did! 
• Graduated from Cal State Fullerton
• 5th month working full-time trying to pay my student loans off
• Dated Joey- he was coo, had really good taste in clothes and we didn't fight.
• Okkervil River and Morgan Page
• Bought myself a flat screen TV...haha don't think its an accomplishment but I sure as hell love it
• My first day of 2011 was pretty damn memorable - train ride to SD
• Saw Kayne and Jay-Z perform together. 
• First year since 21 that I haven't partied in Vegas 
• Met cool people. . . 
• Healthy and so is my family. 

As always excited for the future, cheers to 2012!! 

32 Holiday Parties

Not in the mood to write about boys, my home life, or my boring work life. Since its prime time Christmas time- I'll write about the handful of holiday parties I've attended over the past month. Last year I was in Paris over Christmas, so this year I feel like I'm absorbing all the festivities. Never realized how many different outfits and dresses the month of December requires. I've had to recycle a dress or two and was the least bit happy about it.

My first holiday party was for my company and I decided to go balls to the wall out by buying an expensive sparkly dress and getting my hair done. Made some fun/bad decisions that make the work place less mudane now. All in all it was a great holiday party and the open bar is never a safe place to hang out.


White elephant gift exchanges are seriously a new all time favorite. I find myself bursting with laughter not knowing what each person is going to open up. Of course it sucks when some janky person steals the gift that was actually good, and you end up with a outfit for a wine bottle that actually has a hat. Who has time to think about that and who has time to actually put an outfit on a wine bottle? Like hey my wine bottle is freezing let me put this sweater and hat on it! Whatever, I cracked myself up when someone opened up my gift with the un intention of it being a rape kit. At the dollar store I started putting things in my bag super last minute and didnt realize a ski mask, mustache, ramen noodles, vaseline, and sungalssses could pass as a rape kit.

The cheese and desserts- OMG. I guess it's never a party unless there's four different flavors of cheese and crackers displayed. A bunch of cookies with majority being store bought from the last minute lazys like myself. It's seriously dangerous to hang out near the those fun filled tables. While at a party I have to have something in my had just in case an akward conversation comes up with a stranger so I mine as well stuff my face with those store bought cookies and cheese. Don't know if the appetizer tables or open bar is more of a danger zone...

With Christmas around the corner I'm very much excited to celebrate it with my family and friends. Of course my shopping isn't done, but why would it be when the only thing I know is procrasination? Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays.

The Throne

At 2010 Coachella I saw Jay-Z headline, and 2011 Coachella Kanye performed. Last night I had the pleasure of seeing them together perform at the Staples center. Can really only say it was an awesome, clean, smooth show. Nothing was overdone too much and the set stage was just right. They didn't have any guest appearances, but Kanye wasn't being too much of an asshole. Kanye wore a leather kilt which threw me off at first, and Jay-z rocked his NY Yankees hat. Great show, and well worth the expensive nose bleed prices.

Positive Lifestyle

Having a co-worker become a friend in the work zone really makes my work week that much more enjoyable. Today being a Tuesday was no typical day. I attended my first Toastmasters meeting and it couldn't of gone any better. Toastmasters is a club or organization that helps people with public speaking. Public speaking is always something that's fascinated me and something I want to become better at. I've always admired or been attracted to people who can hold the attention of a room or crowd. Everyone at the meeting was obviously older, but so down to earth and just real people.

One of the topics a speaker spoke about was the ability to dream and to dream with details and passion. It really hit home because I feel like I'm doing great in life, but need to have a specific goal. When I see things from afar with ever detail colored in, I feel like it's easier for me to get  there. Right now I'm all over the map and have a ton of resources and determination, but need the next kick to gear me in the right direction.

Traveling is something I'm passionate about and feel like it's the right time in my life to do. Like I've said publicly on facebook before..."I'm single, not knocked up, hate my job (only because I don't see advancement in the industry) and have a huge passion to travel."

There is one thing which gives radiance to everything. It is the idea of something around the corner.

- G. K. Chesterton

One night.

If it was wrong, then why did it feel so good? Everyone wants and needs to feel loved. It was like my dream came true, but waking up and realizing something else. Everythings so much prettier from far away or when its mysterious. The grass is always greener and will always be greener from the other side. It's crazy how something can get me so high at one moment in life, and the next day make me feel so low.

Little Big Thoughts

Everything I've done in my life half hearted has never worked out. If I do something to please anyone but myself, I'm only fooling myself. My only problem has been my head, my heart, and my gut feeling fighting each other on what to do. All I do know is that when I do things with passion, I'm truly happy and things just fall into place.

Soggy Oreo

Write about what? The borderline depressed melancholy mood I've been in for the past 3 weeks. The horrible feeling of this loneliness that I wish I could easily burn. The one question that someone has asked me that's shattered my life long dream? What should I write about? Well, my computer is on it's last leg. Pretty sure it had about 49 legs at one point though so that's good. The Dino isn't gonna make it to see December 2011 that's for sure. Guess when one's life feels like its crumbling, it has to be smashed. Just hope that when I start to put it back together that I do it right, and so far I've just been sulking in my own pain. Maybe this really is what depression feels like. I'm a straight up advertisement for Zoloft lately. My friends and family can see it all over my face that I just look sad and am. I feel like a soggy Oreo just sitting and drowning in day 4 old milk.